Know your endgame before you lift a hand.

Emmanuel D. Pacquiao

2010-11-14T19:39:00.000-08:00

ANOTHER VICTORY FOR FILIPINO!
CONGRATULATIONS MANNY!

The power of mind

2010-10-20T22:04:00.001-07:00

If only I can verbalize everything I have in mind. I'll be needing more space to fill in. Sometimes there are things that we can't express in words, turns out it is only left in our mind as "imagination". Our mind is a broad playground of our thoughts. It can be good, sometimes it can be bad. Depends on how you play it in your head. It is also the storage of the information we get from learning something and the information we get is what we use for living. It's the nature of life.

A lot of times I prefer to be separated from others and be pacified. Because that's where I can mingle and control my emotions. I like being that way, quietude brings calmness in me. That's a good sign for me, at least. My mind speaks a lot and I was taught not to say everything in it. Because if not, I'd be like a shotgun and there's going to have bloodbath everywhere I go. Don't worry, I manage to control myself regarding on that matter.

So what keeps me sane? I enjoy discovering new things. I also like communicating to some interesting people. I don't usually give long conversation to all the people I'm talking to. If I don't reply, it means I'm bored with that person. Just being real. I like keeping myself busy, where I can use my abilities and given talents. Focus is the key to perfect my work and focus requires intense thinking. My other option would be writing. I'm not a fan of writing. I didn't even know when did I commenced writing, it's weird, but at least I can extend my talent through this.

Every person has given a mind to think. Use it well, it will lead you to a better life. Use it the wrong way, it will direct you to the other side of road where you don't want to be. You choose. Think.

Thank you Ate Dhes!

2010-06-01T23:56:00.000-07:00

I’m facing a new chapter of my life. A new phase where I have to stand on my own feet, be strong and live independently. It’s hard, even though I’m raised as an only child, it’s still difficult. I really don’t know how to describe it. I’m mixed of sad, lonely, scared, somehow excited and worried. But I know that this time, that God has given me, I have to learn not to depend on other person but only for myself and Him. These empty four walls scares me a lot. No more silly jokes, no more staying up late at night just talking about random things, no more wacky moments and endless laughs, no more cold war’s and unexpected conflicts, no more eating marathons and shared chores, no more advices to give and advices to get, and most of all the unforgettable bonding moments. She’s gone now, my roommate, my friend, my sister, my officemate, my enemy and the person who "understands the real me”. It’s not easy to adjust. It’s been almost 4 years of friendship and sisterhood. We’ve been through A LOT! But I never get a chance to tell her how much thankful and how blessed I am to have her as my roommate. She was the first, the first one to teach me how to be okay being away from home. I thought I couldn’t stand being away from home, but I did it with her.

She has other plans for her life. I can see she was decided. I’m happy for her. But those memories I had with her stays, and that makes me sad. I never thought 4 years had passed; it’s just so fast I can barely imagine it. That last minute I was with her was memorable. Saying goodbye was hard. And while walking on my way home I feel like I’m breaking apart, cause she’s gone for good and no one knows when she’s coming back. Maybe after a year, 2 years, 3 years later I can’t really tell. I hate being alone, I just hate it! But I know God is preparing both of us for something more. I just have to trust Him. And this is the part of it, not by chance but by His plans. It’s just the matter of acceptance.

Goodbye and may the Lord bless you. And thank you for everything!

TWLOHA shirt!

2010-06-01T23:45:00.000-07:00

Well I got this package from a friend.

I was about to pay it through money transfer but he insisted. Waaah I wish I ordered hoodie instead hahaha! just kidding Ivan. But hey thanks dude! I really love it!

I want to know you more.

2009-08-24T20:17:00.001-07:00

A couple of weeks ago I was enduring with this question in my head, “How well do I know Jesus?” In the last days Jesus said He will reveal Himself on the second coming. But how do we know when will be that time? No one knows. Mark 13:32 says “No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.” So with our everyday life Jesus is exposing His real identity to us by His word. He’s instructing us to know Him more before He comes back. He’s revealing Himself day after day to us. But do we care too much about Him?

At first I thought by doing good deeds I’m saved, but the Lord says “I am the way the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me” John 14:6. It’s pretty obvious that even if you are the honest kid, the understanding person, the polite student, the patient guy, the kind parents, the brave and responsible leader or a caring friend none of these are the basis, but only if you accept Jesus as our Lord and savior.

But how will I know if I’m beginning to know Jesus and how far I’m going?

1. If you can say “NO!” to temptations.
2. If you will let your body be lead by the Holy Spirit.
3. If you are meditating with His word.
4. If you are willing to receive revelations.
5. If you can set aside your own personal time in replace of worshiping and praying to Jesus.
6. If you are ready to sacrifice everything you have when He calls you.

I have totally erased the fact that I can still do what I want even if I prayed to God. If it is not God’s will, but yet you’ve prayed for it and still do it, you are sinning. Doing what your mind and heart tells you to do without the approval of the Holy Spirit is a form of Satanism. We should be aware with our Holy Spirit. If you are confused it’s not God’s will, Holy Spirit’s consent offers peacefulness.

Being emotional follows, some people rely on their emotions. Scriptures says we are body with Spirit, not body run by our emotions. Emotion can mislead us to unrighteousness, although it is a natural gift for us to have an emotion, we should know how to urge our spirit more than being emotional. I know it’s going to be hard and I’m talking based on experience and God is helping me to be an over comer. Learning from mistakes is God’s motivation to us that there’s always another chance to stand up and finish our race. I’m even more excited about knowing Him more, not just because I know Him as my savior but also on how good and great Jesus is.

Now when someone asks you, how will you respond...? “How well do you know Jesus?”

Jesus can hear and understand what you’re about to say. Ü

Twenty four

2009-07-02T00:33:00.000-07:00

Horaay! Finally after a couple of months, I’m back again. Alright I know, you guys are wondering what took me so long to post another blog entry, well basically I don’t have enough time and honestly I don’t know what to write haha! It’s pretty boring today so I decided to share a little bit of a story I haven’t told on my previous posts, so I’m hoping that you won’t get weary of reading this.

A lot of things happened and every single day a lot of things are still happening. I can’t comprehend how time runs. And of course there are always new stuffs that surprise us; good news or bad news. Yeah I know it sucks, and things get worse when people exaggerate or sometimes get frantic at small reasons. Do we really have to worry? In Matthew chapter 6 verses 25-34, Jesus was talking about life and how we should not be bothered. “Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are YOU not much more valuable than they?” Matthew 6:26. Sadly, some people still don’t know how to handle life. Some of us want to quit, others wanted a way out, some they don’t know where to go, and others tend to end everything, even their own lives. We all go through with many problems; the fact is how we deal with it.

Years ago before I met Jesus, I always ask myself where my life would be heading. I’m not a religious type of person before (neither today). Life to me before is all about waking up in the morning, doing what you ought to do the whole day and the following day you’re up with the same thing. It’s like an endless cycle for me. I don’t even know why I live and what my purpose in living is. I was a total jerk! I thought everything is going to be easy, that all of this stuff happening to me is just a part of what they call “human nature”. When I started working outside my hometown, I’ve learned a lot of sinful things. It was like “Alright, this young girl from the province is learning the Sin city way”. I have freedom that time; my parents didn’t know what I was doing. Every Friday night after work, I go to some bar to watch some bands that wanted to see live. I always ended up going home late, and of course I’ve learned how to lie to my parents, not telling them where I had been. I thought I was doing okay, cuz everybody’s doing it. Lying. I was enjoying life the wrong way. But still that question keeps on coming back in my head, “Where my life would be heading and why am I here?” I was in the middle of nowhere. I wanted a way out of that loop. Until that time came.

Honestly, I don’t know Jesus, yeah you can laugh at me now but really I don’t know who Jesus Christ was. I don’t know what’s the meaning of redemption, or simply the fact that what He did for our salvation. All I know is that Jesus is holy that’s it. And that ignorance draws me closer to Him. He made the easiest way for me. He used the right person for me to know Him more. He is the missing piece of my jigsaw puzzle that I was searching for. He came just in the right time where I was totally lost. And yes “I’M IN!”

Somehow a lot of my usual habit changed, I don’t know. It disappeared naturally. One day I just got fed up with all of it. That’s how God changed me; He did it little by little. I found the right satisfaction. Not in money, not in possessions, not with my career, not with happenings nor with people or even with my love ones. I found it only in Jesus. Yup, only in Him.

He’s working in a process, process that sometimes we neglect. We always have a choice.

We just have to pick which is the best choice for us.

Haha! My blog entry is getting a little bit long. Anyway, hope I inspired you with my shared experience.

Don’t immerse with your problems, take a quiet moment and pray. Jesus knows your desires, if you will just let Him in to your heart.

God bless y’all! Ü

Finally! Dreff's bio.

2009-03-24T20:35:00.000-07:00

Hi my name is Dreff and this is my bio.

I’m writing it from my bedroom at around 11pm. I just finished star gazing and I find it really amusing, watching how the stars form while laying on this cold surface of our neighbor’s flat roof top. Sometimes you can witness pieces of meteors that have become broken off in space. Shooting star as they call it. That’s also the time where I feel really close to God and it seems like I’m talking to Him face-to-face. It’s kinda humid tonight, even if I went outside. Summer.

Rainy day is my favorite time of the year. Everywhere. Even back home, no matter how people will react on it: rainy day is my favorite time of the year.
Perhaps it reminds me a lot of good memories: a chance to look back to. It’s like settling your present mind aside and giving way to good memories that happened. Reminiscing.

I was born in September. Maybe that has something to do with it. Even when I was young, rainy days feels like home. Skies are crying but eventually it could give birth to a new beginning. Like pain and healing. The rain.

I don’t have siblings, but it doesn’t mean I’m a loner. I’ve learned to be independent at a very young age. At 17, I started earning money to live. But I never regret that. And I love what I do; I can never blame myself nor my parents. It’s just my random choice. God was equipping me because He knows I can do a lot. I’m blessed. And I’m thankful enough, this life is a real gift.

I grew up in Cavite. I was born and raised there, got some “distinct culture” as they say, but I know we’re all unique in our own ways. It’s pretty incredible place. People know each other & you can never compare their hospitality. I get in and out very often because I work in the big city. I pay to visit my family every end of the week. However, I never worry once I get my feet in the properties of my hometown. It’s like “Ok I’m here, I’m safe now” There’s no way that I can compare that place. Home.

God blessed me with a lot of skills and I’m very proud that I’m using it to glorify Him. That’s my way of thanking Him. Every single day.

I do express myself in different kinds of sources I could get my hands into, so I suppose that makes you think I'm an artist. I think all things has its own purpose, we just have to be creative about it's own worth.

My passion in arts, draw me to where I’m at today. I never thought that I would be part of a respectful company. God made it possible. There’s no impossible in Him. In fact, I am perhaps more drawn with arts than ever.

My second great passion is music. Lately music has been my compass and gateway to change. God is really smart; He really wants me to excel to where I can use the gift that He had given me. Today I’m part of a band that utters exaltation to God.

This life has been a great rollercoaster ride. It taught me a lot on how to run and drive this. We all struggle in a sense but after that failure and chaos it can bloom up to something beautiful and special. And the future depends on my choice. I’m positive I will have a good journey to this life.

It's been a while

2009-03-24T01:20:00.001-07:00

Busy days. But still I’m thankful enough that I get to accomplish the entire task that needs to be done these past few weeks. Sometimes we all want to give up in a certain situation. But we have to keep moving on; others think that life is just an endless cycle, you’re wrong sweetie! I must say, life is more of a long narrow road; we’re the one who’s charge of taking this life not the other way around. Life.

Time is moving so fast. Summer is already coming. Got new things in mind, I’m preparing myself for something more this season. It’s going to be a busy summer I assure that. I’m planning to visit my friends whom I haven’t got to see for months and try to spent quality time with them. I’ve been busy in and around the church lately, been teaching kids art class, band practice and more stuff. But it’s cool though, I like what I do, and I love the reason why I do it. God.

I currently enjoy listening to songs that has a profound sense. Those kind of songs that could really move you and songs that could really inspire you. Like for instance, Jon Foreman & Nickel creek, yeah they’ve been my lullaby tracks before I go to sleep. Or maybe it’s really good evidence that my taste buds in music change as I get older. Maybe.

I’m not into the melody of songs; I buff lyrics more than its tune. No matter how slow or upbeat it is, I don’t care for as long as I got struck with the words, I’ll sing with it. Stimulated.

Can’t wait to have my vacation. I want to go to Ternate, Naic. I miss the people there and of course the breath-taking beach! Really awesome place and awesome people too. I have to admit I really don’t like summer, but either way there’s no chance I could jump out that season. I just have to enjoy what’s coming. Frenzy.

Other plans? I’m beginning to like writing, out of random thoughts. Or should I say I’m commencing to write songs. You know when you’re just anywhere these ideas comes out and then all of a sudden you’re starting writing it. I know I’m not that good but soon enough when I’m confident, I’ll post some. Subconscious.

Don’t let your day be wasted. We have to die empty. Life is still worth living.

Para sa'yo

2009-01-22T00:03:00.000-08:00

After 2 weeks nakapagpaload din. Nagkaroon din ng katahimikan sa loob ng mga panahong iyon. I mean nakapagfocus din ako sa mga bagay na dapat pagtuunan ng oras. Aminado naman ako na minsan nao-occupy ng pagpindot at pagkalikot ng cellphone ang oras na dapat sa importanteng bagay. Bakit nga ba ako nagload? Wala lang, naisip ko lang baka mablock yung sim ko pag di ako nagload (paranoid? 2 weeks lang neh!) Hindi, ang totoo niyan kaya ako nagload, namiss ko ng mag-gee-em (group message) sa mga friends ko kaya naisipan kong magload. Yun na.

May maganda akong natutunan mula kay pastor, na pwedeng nating gamitin ang mga latest gadgets para makapagshare. Tama! Now may enough reason na ako para magload yeah! Seriously, I think it could help a lot of people. Pwede nating sabihing binigyan tayo ng blessing na gadgets, pero para saan nga ba ito? Dapat maging matalino tayo sa purpose ng paggamit nito. We’re lucky enough that our technology today is making our lives lenient. Can you imagine kung pano ang process ng pagdadala ng mensahe noon? Maraming paraan noon, hindi ko na isaisahin ang mga ito. And as time goes by mas lalong nagiging convenient ang proseso sa pagdadala ng mensahe, dahil sa pagdating ng makabagong teknolohiya. “The next generation” ika nga, naintroduce ang “computer”, mula sa black & white hanggang naging colored, pagkatapos na-uupgrade na ang features nito. Nung una ginawa ang computer para pang-data encode, pagkatapos naisip ng mga tao na gumawa ng mga programs na makakatulong sa pangangailangan sa bawat larangan. At saka dumating ang “internet”, kung saan nagkaroon ang bawat computer ng access sa iba’t ibang websites na makakapagconnekta kung nasan ka mang lugar. Mula sa internet, nagkaroon ng websites kung saan pwede kang magpadala ng emails at instant messages. Hindi mo na kailangang maghintay ng sandamakmak na araw para makarating ang sulat or mensahe mo sa pagbibigyan mo, dito isang click mo lang ng “send” button, any minute marereceive na niya ang message mo. Galing! Bukod pa dito nadiscover din ang “live viewing”, dito makakausap mo yung taong nais mo through webcam, pwede mo ring marinig yung boses ng kausap mo kung meron kang mic at headset (hindi yung mic na pang videoke ah -_-) .

Totoo nga namang nakamamangha ang teknolohiya ngayon. Imagine pati ang cellphone may 3G na rin. Astig. And I know ss paglipas pa ng panahon mas marami pang maiimbento ang tao, dahil binigyan tayo ng Diyos ng talino. Dahil sa imahinasyon ng tao nagagawa niyang posible ang imposible. (word!) Pero ‘wag tayong magpakasaya sa mga bagay ng ito. Dahil ang lahat ng ito ay may katapusan. Yup! Kahit ang pinakamamahal mong iPhone ay eventually masisira din. Ang maganda niyan , habang in condition pa ang mga gadgets mo, gamitin mo na sa bagay na worthy. Di ba mas maganda yun? I’m speaking in general. Bakit hindi mo gamitin ang gadgets mo sa mabuti. Paano? Example, magpasa ka ng bible verses or inspirational quotes na related kay God sa katext mo. Hindi love quotes at jokes ah!

Sa mga music player naman, why not try songs that pleases God? Dito na-mimisinterpret ng tao kapag sinabing “Christian Music”. Ang totoo niyan wala naman talagang christian music, meron lang christian lyrics. Yung nilalaman ng song or yung mismong lyrics ang nakakapagpa-sacred sa song, hindi yung tune. Actually, God loves all kinds of music, mabilis or mabagal, malakas or mahinahon, luma or bago, gusto Niyang lahat dahil Siya ang lumikha ng lahat ng mga ito, basta’t ang kanta ay inaalay lamang sa Kanya. And by that you’re pleasing Him.

Kung meron ka namang computer or laptop, why don’t you try to spread inspirational thoughts through posting blogs like this. (naks promotion haha!) Yung tipong makabuluhan at masisilbing inspirasyon sa magbabasa. Masasabi kong hindi man ako magaling magsulat ng blog, kahit paano nagagawa kong ishare ang natutunan ko. “Out of love” sabi nila. Indeed. Nakakawala ng stress, nakakaimprove ng vocabulary (di nga?! hehe.) at saka dito mo rin maisasalin yung mga nasa isip at nararamdaman mo na minsan di natin kayang sabihin sa tao. Ayun (salamat sa payo ng isa kong friend, effective stress reliever to!) Continuing… kung nag-iinstant message ka naman sa mga kakilala mo, make sure na bukod sa pagkamusta sa kanilang kalagayan, kamustahin mo rin ang spiritual life nila. Shaping other people by giving out word of God and explaining it to them at the same time. Hindi ba’t mas magandang magtanim ng magandang gawain sa ibang tao at mareceive ang pagpapala ng Diyos? Mas masarap maramdaman ang blessing kung full hearted mo itong ginawa.

Lahat ng tayo dito sa mundo ay nilikha para turuan ang bawat isa ba kilalanin ang Ama. At ang araw na lumilipas ay nagsisilbing another chance to reach out sa mga kapatid nating naliligaw ng landas. Ako, ang mission ko? Magsulat at magbahagi ng salita ng Diyos. Kahit sa ganitong paraan, pero alam kong hindi pa ito sapat at marami pang ways. I want to inspire, to influence and to encourage people to get to know God better. Tama! Hindi dapat ako makuntento na ako lang ang saved. Dapat ikaw din, oo IKAW na matiyagang nagbabasa nito. Sana by this I’ve touched your heart. At kahit di ka man magleave ng comment, idaan mo na lang sa prayer. Prayer of acceptance to Jesus Christ. Ang paghingi ng tawad sa kasalanan at paglakad sa katotohanan. Naghihintay lamang Siya sa iyo at kailan man di ka Niya tatalikuran.

What's in you head?

2009-01-20T20:57:00.000-08:00

Can you seize the moment? Do you notice how time runs so quickly? What are you doing right now? Are you thinking about your future? Are you still fixed with what’s happening around you? Or you’re contented with your current condition? What keeps you from moving on? Is it your job, your career? Is it your family, friends, or just yourself? Are you confused or worried? Are there questions that require answers but you can’t seem to find it? Are you still immersing with wrong-doings? What’s your purpose? Do you know your purpose? What scares you? Are you afraid to die? How can you define your after-life? How do you measure your beliefs? Can't comprehend how?

Jesus is the answer for the world today. Above Him there's no other. Jesus is the Way.

Goodbye 2008

2009-01-20T00:08:00.000-08:00

Initiating the New Year ahead with thanksgiving and reminiscing the time that I accomplished…

Be brave enough to go out of my shell and attempt to work in the big city.

Being far away from home was the hardest decision I ever made, but that’s the best choice. And living like this, I became more self-contained and I learn how confront challenges with my everyday life.

When I held my first skateboard, be determined to use it. And encountered how to shoot out for the first time. (ouch!)

Gaining on how to handle life’s ups and downs, discovering way to escape anxieties and worries. Not to wallow with adversities and admitting that nothing is perfect except to the one who made us.

Becoming literally “girly”, somehow. (woot woot!) But still remaining laid back, blithe-spirited and carefree.

Being blonde for like 5 months and bringing it back to my old natural hair color, leaving few strands of proof that I was once blonde.

Saying goodbye to my excess teeth and adjusting so hard with my new found braces.

Discovering that writing is one of the best forms of releasing stress and clearing out apprehensions.

And lastly, being part of a group that speaks out one motive and desire... to serve God.

I’m really looking forward that this year, I will be more open-minded about the true meaning of life. That everything that matters is trusting God and focusing on Him alone. Why worry about your future? Don’t depend on the world today, everything around here will all pass away, but the promise of God still remains until the time He comes. Never regret thus put FULL your trust in Him.

"So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” – Matthew 6:34

Becoming this

2009-01-19T01:23:00.000-08:00

It is not an easy task to become the person in charge for a certain responsibility. And becoming one means a lot of dedication and perseverance, and as the head you must have great perception towards your main objective. I am aware of the limitations and boundaries of being appointed as the head of a team. First, no perfectionism, every person has its own glitch and don’t expect that you would get easy the right blueprint in any condition. Instead make it a point to confide with your flaws because it will serve as your stepping stone to shape the accurate plans. Second, being regardless to critics or other’s judgments. If you as a leader are open to judgments, you should know how to grasp your emotions towards other people’s opinions weather it is good or bad. Third, being the head of a team doesn’t mean that you’re the only one who’s responsible in everything, you should be open to other member’s suggestions. It can vary some uncertain misconception that may lead the team to flounder. Fourth, having boldness and spirit to face any circumstances no matter how difficult or complicated the dilemma is. And lastly, putting trust to the One who have chosen you and given you the wisdom to do your duty. If God entrusted you to become the head or the leader of a team, give your heart and dedicate your life to your assigned task. And ask for His assistance and He will direct you to righteousness. And He will abound you with eternal blessings.

"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength"
- Philippians 4:13

What makes me do it?

2009-01-15T22:12:00.001-08:00

I bet some of you are wondering why am I into this blog stuff. I know I can boldly say that I’m not a good “writer” or “blogger” (as other term they call it) well at least I tried to.. so just let me do this will ya’?

What makes Dreff write blog today..

- Randomness. Tell me about trying something new aside on doing layouts 8hrs a day -_- It is an easy job though, I need to free my mind and clear my head by doing something different.

- Boredom. There’s no project lining up for me today so I’m free to post an entry here lalalala.. at least I’m spending my time in a productive way like this.

- Delighted. Everythin’ worked out pretty well today, from the moment I got up from bed to the time I got here at work. So I’m assuming to have a great day ahead.

- Inspired. I’m even more challenged on the task that I’m assigned to do in church. Not worrying about not getting it because I know there’s always people in my back to tap if I’m doing mistakes.

- Satisfied. There’s nothing I could ask for at the moment. God will provide me everything I will be needing, I know I can rest assured.

- Glad. My hair is a-ok today, I guess it’s because of the conditioner I’m using. But anyways its super straight so I can’t complain about it.

- Exhilarated. Music is one of my passion. It feels like a child to learn new things about something, like what I’m trying to learn in music being specific on bass. I’m loving it and time helps me enhance even more.

- Cheerful. I may not always show that I’m cheerful but you will notice it when you find me wearing one of my favorite shirt. You’ll find me wearing it now haha!

I choose to be this way, and it’s the part of my change in growing as the new Dreff. The moody, ill-tempered, impatient, fretful, snob, confused, grumpy, frank, careless me is all gone.. for good. And for those people who have been part of this change, thank you. Ü

I'm so blessed

2009-01-15T22:11:00.000-08:00

It’s been a while since my last post here. Grabe ang bilis ng panahon! Parang in just a blink of an eye magpapalit na naman ang taon. Tama nga ang sabi ni pastor, pinapabilis ni God ang takbo na panahon para makabalik na Siya. I wonder if I’m still alive when He will come here or buhay pa kaya ako pag dumating na ang anti-Christ. Ano kaya ang mangyayari kapag nandito na siya? I’ve learned na lahat ng ito ay nakatakda na. Yun pala yung gustong ipaalam sa akin ng Diyos kung bakit Niya ako tinawag. Masaya ako at tinulungan ako ng Holy spirit na makinig sa Ama. And I’m a proud follower of Christ! It’s been a year since ng tinanggap ko Siya, although I did struggle, He still pulled me back at di Siya pumayag na bumalik ako sa dati. I’m so blessed to have my friends around me to keep me on track. Sila yung naging guide ko para di ako maligaw muli ng landas, and I’m even more happier to have them and together we’re serving God. Before, I used to ask myself about my life, my future, my after life, saan nga ba ako pupunta kapag namatay ako? I can’t define the answers that’s running around my head, I was confused and was so lost. But I found the answers. Nang dumating Siya, nagkaroon ng sagot lahat lahat ng mga tanong na tumatakbo sa isip ko. Sa Kanya ko nakita yung mga sagot. Yun pala yun. Ikaw? narinig mo na bang kumatok sa pintuan ng puso mo ang Diyos? Pinagbuksan mo ba Siya? Kung hindi pa, don’t have any second thought of opening your doors to Him, dahil He will wait for you patiently. Di Siya titigil hangga’t di ka Niya nakukuha muli.

I would say, ang laking improvement ko ngayon. Naiba na ung pananaw ko sa buhay, my point of views, my desires, my routine, my motives, my immaturity, my moods.. my all. I’ve learned to understand and listen. I’ve learned to think and check my heart before to make any decisions. I’ve learned how to deal with person and try to cope with what they feel or say. It’s a great change, I’ve learned not to curse, not to lie and not to judge. I learn to love not just the people i know but also the strangers around me. God proved that He can win me back and He did! Now I’ve been open minded about the truth, it’s my turn to help others who have lost their ways and trying to escape from the dark path they are taking. Indeed, we’re here to reach out one another. To have one desire, to have one motive and that is to serve God, to be with Him, in our real home in heaven.

Naranasan mo na ba?

2009-01-15T22:09:00.000-08:00

Very common na sa atin ang mag-commute, mapa-bus man yan, taxi, fx, jeepney, tricycle or even pedicab. At I’m so sure na naranasan na nating lahat ang mga problems sa pag-kocommute, wait a minute anu-ano nga ba ang mga nagiging problema natin kapag tayo ay nag-commute? Here are some that you can relate to:

1. 40 years of waiting. Sobrang tagal mo na sa hintayan ng sasakyan at 40 years na wala pa ring bus, taxi, fx, jeepney, tricycle or pedicab na dumadating. Kung meron mang dumating puno na at may nakasabit pa!

2. Punuan to! Kung nakasakay ka na naman sa sasakyan minsan ay kelangan pang punuin ang bus or jeepney bago pa ito umalis, late ka na di pa rin nakakaalis ang sasakyan na sinakyan mo. Ang tendency mag-iinit ang ulo mo at bababa ka para maghintay ng "sibat" (mga sasakyang dumadaan na di nagpupuno ng pasahero) na sasakyan.

3. Unahan factor. Eto ang exciting part kasi unahan kayo sa bus, jeepney or tricyle or even pedicab if any. Pag di ka magaling sa ganito madadapa ka talaga. (expert ako diyan! )

4. Standing position sa bus. Minsan pag nagmamadali ka na talga ay mapipilitan ka ng tumayo para hindi ka lang ma-late, favor ito sa mga bus operator kasi dagdag kita sila kahit mukhang sardinas na sa loob ng bus.

5. 1/2 sit. Eto ang pinakamatinding na-experience ko sa lahat, ang maupo ng halos 2 inches na lang ang uupuan ko. Minsan may nagmamagandang loob naman na nagbibigay ng additional 1 inch. Pero may ilan talagang kapalmuks na kahit anong galaw ang ginawa mo ay manhid pa rin! hey! nagbabayad din kami ng parehas ng sayo, be fair! (ehem sorry) Sa mga guys, konting kipot lang po, sa mga girls wag na lang po tayong magsideway sitting position.

6. Para ho mama. Yes minsan si manong driver eh di naririnig yung pag-para natin, kaya nakalagpas na tayo sa bababaan natin ay go parin si manong driver, sige kuya abante! Ang tendency, maglalakad tayo pabalik or ang matindi neto, sasakay tayo ulit pabalik! oh no! May additional nag pa kay manong before bumaba hehehe!

7. Andar-baba portion. Minsan di aware si manong driver sa mga bababa kaya minsan pababa ka na eh umaandar pa ang sasakyan na sinakyan mo, hassle diba? pano kung naka-heels ka? wah poise diba?

8. No smoking nga eh. Eto naman yung mga pasahero na parang di nakakaintindi na bawal magyosi sa loob ng sasakyan. Kahit sabihin pa nating walang nakalagay na sign na "NO SMOKING" eh hindi ibig sabihin nun na you’re free to do anything you want sa loob ng sasakyan. Kahit sabihin mo pang open naman yung window eh bawal pa rin yun.

Funny isn’t it? We have to admit that we have experienced this kinds of situations, and sometimes some of us are losing their patience especially if we really wanted to be on time to our appointment or whatever. We hate delay and long wait. We get grumpy, irritated and annoyed. But what good is it gonna cause us? Nothing. We always complain with simple and small things. And I can bodly say that if you react with small annoying situations, you are IMMATURE! "A mocker seeks wisdom and never finds it,but knowledge comes easily to those with understanding." Proverbs 14:6 NLT. It means we should act as grown up person and a stop acting like a kid fighting over small matters. Our body is growing but our minds are still stuck with immature behaviours. Complaining, reasoning and dwelling which results to fighting. The fact is we’re talking about small matters, such a baby right?

The key for this are PATIENCE & UNDERSTANDING. "People with understanding control their anger;a hot temper shows great foolishness." Proverbs 14:29 NLT

All of the given problems I have mentioned can be avoided if we have those keys. We could simply address the driver or co-passangers that caused us those problems and talk to them in a nice way and again in a nice way no raising voices. "A gentle answer deflects anger,but harsh words make tempers flare." Proverbs 15:1 NLT

We also should practice to obey rules, even just simple rules. I can insert understanding with obedience cause when you obey it means you understand what are the advantages of following it. Like waiting on a stop bus, using overpasses to avoid accidents, etc. It’s just very easy actually and all of those were built for our own comfort not to harm us.

And perhaps to end this topic about hassle in commuting, let’s just all be calm with everything. I know I understand everyone of you cuz I’m a commuter too and I have experienced almost all of the hassles wherever I go. But I always keep it up and think positive about it. Cuz I know I would get nothing if I will dwell with it. So the next time you experience those problems I have mentioned, just exhale it out and dust yourself up. ^_^

It just happened

2009-01-15T22:08:00.000-08:00

Sudden coldness of air woke me up. I gently opened my eyes and saw the gray sky, it was raining at the same time. You wouldn’t know what time it is, it looks like 6:00 am, surprisingly I was wrong. I grabbed my cellphone and hurriedly checked the time, it was 10:00 am. If it is not holiday, we would be so late at work, the good thing is, it is holiday. The reason; cause of Ramadan. I don’t know if I would be thankful to it. I could just chill and relax the whole day, but the thing is, I’m responsible for the laundry today. Unluckily I’ve got a lot of clothes to wash.. bummer! So after fixing the bed I prepared everything I’ll be needing for my assigned task for the day, then I took a shower. I barely forgot that it was payday yesterday and I need to get cash to pay for the rent. So after fixing myself, I put on my hoody and rush out in the rain. I can complain if sometimes I hate the rain, it’s hassle on the way to where you’re going; it could ruin your outfit; the road is slippery and tell me about flood? yeah. And internet doesn’t work well when it’s raining! But you know what I like about the rain, it brings back good fond memories. Sounds silly. Seriously, I love rainy days cause I could just sit down in our couch and watch it pour out while remembering those memories. Rain somehow is like a point in time where you can just stop and think for a while. It is also the perfect time where you could bond with your family or even your friends. Anyway, back to my story, after a short walk to the ATM machine, I went to the groceries to get some stuff. And then I went straight home, I didn’t even know that I’ve already consumed 1 hour by doing all of that. Maybe because of the weather, it looks as though cause I haven’t checked out the time. I got home and had my lunch (German frank cheese waffle is the best! I tell yah!) Then I started dealing with my laundry. I started doing it by 12 pm and ended 3 pm. Can you imagine how many clothes that was? Good thing my roommate helped me out, cause she noticed that I was taking so long. Thank God! I felt I was going to pass out after that heavy task. Everything happened in a jiffy sec, all I know was, I started my day waking up at 10 am then all of a sudden it’s 3 pm. Wha? And I found myself laying down, straight back, my spinal was aching badly. Slowly my eyes were shutting and then everything went black. Taking back my lost energy from that tiring duty.

It was getting cold when I started to open my eyes, I looked at the time, it was 6 pm. Noises from the other room woke me up, guys there were having drinking session, as usual. But I don’t care. Now do you think I should still be thankful if it is holiday or not? When if I’m at work I would be just sitting in front of my pc doing what I’m ought to do? Anyways, it happened. And it happened that fast I barely even noticed, yet I’m tired I still get to scribble this thing out. It’s quite fun though, tomorrow is another day to face— Ü